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20th October 2016
The other day I read this quote on Pinterest, and it stopped me in my tracks:
"If you’re not hungry for God – then you’re too full of yourself."
Flip! At that moment, I felt the Holy Spirit’s loving but firm conviction: "Give me all your heart. You’re filling up areas of your life with other things; I want all of you."
Psalm 63 is one of my favourite psalms: "O God you are my God, earnestly I seek you, my souls thirsts for you, my body longs for you. In a dry and weary land where there is no water. For I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory, for your love is better than life, so my lips will glorify you. I will bless you as long as I live and in your name I will lift my hands." Psalm 63:1-4
In the natural, the longer you haven’t eaten the hungrier you become. But with God, the more we see of Him and fill our time and hearts with Him, the more we want Him. In Psalm 63, after David has seen God he uses intense language to describe his desperate need for more of Him.
If I’m honest, I can let days slip past without truly spending quality time with God. I know this starves me spiritually, but I find that the more this happens the more I think I don't need Him. Other things I give my time to aren’t bad, but they eat away at my time with God.
When I was a teenager, one of the youth leaders challenged me about whether us girls can spend more time each day straightening our hair than being with God. Now I know we can take this to the extreme – of course we’re going to sleep or be at work for more hours each day than we give to dedicated time with God, and of course I need to shower, eat, and see friends and family, but the point really struck me, even at the tender age of 15! As I read that Pinterest quote, I felt convicted of this again. So often I waste time trawling through Facebook, daydreaming, faffing around the house and straightening my hair so that whole mornings and evenings go past where I have wasted time I could have spent with Him.
This isn’t about beating myself up and getting all legalistic; it’s about my heart longing to be filled with the one it was made to be filled with. It’s about joining David and crying out: "Earnestly I seek you, my soul thirsts for you." I don't want my life to be full of me.
I don't want my gravestone to say: "Joanna had nice hair and a good knowledge of films!" I want to pour my time into knowing and loving Jesus more, to spend the mornings delving into treasures and truth from the Bible, to pray and talk to Him throughout the day, and to: "Bless His name as long as I live." This week I’ve needed to be real with God, to list out the things that I’m full of and to repent and re-order some stuff in my life.
So let me ask you: What are you full of? What’s filling your thoughts, your time, your days? I believe God is waiting for you to bring Him your whole heart, however that looks for you, whatever large or small amount of time that means you can give Him. Jesus gave us all of himself. I wonder how hungry we can be for Him?
Posted by Joanna Mutu